Sunday, February 05, 2006
today was like a super long day mann..woke up at six cos i had to go see ashley off..he was going back to australia!..haha..n another church friend of mine was migrating..
when my brother came back on dec 19, i was like that guy's gonna be here real long but like before i knew it 6 weeks had past and he was going back..i hate time..
anyway after that i went to church..was suppose to chair the meetin but i was so lost i had no idea what to do..i mean i prayed about it.i thought i could do it..everytime jason wld ask me if i needed help i kept sayin no it was okay..but i was so wrong..n when i ask them like should we do this or that dan would be like i thought you prepared already..ugh..i just cant chair..
dammit..and sometimes i feel happy with the church people..but then again most of the time..i feel so left out..like i dont belong..sometimes i feel like i dont belong anywhere..that maybe i was meant to be some dumbass loner..it sucks..this year ive been getting like vibes from people that they dont want me near them..you know..i just feel that way..
am i thinkin too much?
posted @ 4:20 AM
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